Metanoia

–noun – (met-uh-noy-uh) – the journey of changing one’s mind, heart, self, or way of life–

I started this blog because I like to write, but as anyone can see, I am the worst at seeing anything through. I couldn’t keep the motivation of posting as I lacked any good ideas. Sadly, this is the pattern with all my stories I start. I’m so excited at the beginning with creating the characters and writing about their journey, but somewhere in the middle they just sort of meander around until I end up in a tangled mess that I can’t see any way out, so the poor character that had once filled my imagination ends up in a dark deep hole of uncertainty.

Perhaps this will be my plight in life. But I am bound and determined to try again and even finish one manuscript, whether or not it has any publishing potential. Just the thought of writing ‘the end’ is enough to get my head out of the cobwebs and put my best effort into starting again. (I’ve already got a story spinning in my head.)

Of course this isn’t the first time I’ve created a blog and stopped after a few posts. Recently, I was reminded of a blog I started after I had my son. It wasn’t anything too fancy. I wrote about words. Words that caught my eye, or made me think of things going on in my life and the people in it. My last post was about my mother and how peculiar she is, but also about how much she means to me. (You can check it out at aweeklyword.blogspot.com).

It makes me sad that I stopped writing the weekly word posts. They were actually quite fun to write. But I can’t go back. (The login information is lost somewhere in the cobwebs.) It’s just like life in a way. We can’t go back to the past, but we can learn and grow from the mistakes and regretful paths we’ve taken.

It feels good to be writing again, and I hope that I can keep this momentum going. I’ll have NaNoWriMo to help me along. ^_^

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